Why am I overweight?
According to my BMI, I am still overweight at 146 pounds. I’m proud that I’ve lost so much weight but still determined to get into a normal and healthy weight range once and for all.
How did I get to be so overweight in the first place? It’s not like I didn’t know I was gaining weight. It’s not like I didn’t have to keep buying bigger and bigger pants, and when even extra-large was getting snug, I bought more clothes in 2xL, swearing I’d start losing weight…soon…tomorrow…after this…after that…
Basically every day I had a day full of decisions and choices, and I made the wrong ones. I ate the wrong things, ate too much, didn’t work out, and the result was a body over 200 pounds and a mind that was depressed and hated myself.
I face those same choices today, with 11 pounds to go, as I did with over 60 pounds to go. “Oh, I’m so close to goal weight, I’ve done so well, I can have this” or “I’ve worked so hard, I’ll just not work out today”. Talk like that gained back 11 pounds! It’s the same battle, with 11 pounds to go or 60, or however many pounds away from goal I am. Too many calories is too many calories, whether I am near my goal or far away! Losing weight doesn’t change the fact that too many calories will be stored on my body as FAT.
This morning I had a choice: go running, or stay in bed? I have to admit I stayed in bed. But later, as I was up and thinking about how I used to get up, tired or not, to bring myself even a hair closer to my goal, how I struggled with an extra 60+ pounds on my body to get dressed and go for even a short walk at the beginning of this journey, I felt that I deserve to put in a good workout today. All the effort I’ve put into this to get this far, deserves for me not to start slacking now!
I ran for 45 minutes, and I felt great.
I made another choice today: to join the fitness Survivor challenge and enjoy the support and competition of others on this same journey. I feel very excited and very hopeful today, like I found my way back to my path and am ready to hit the ground running!
You made great choices - ran instead of sleeping is great. Keep it up.
Mindy, you can do it girl! Keep your head up and take it a step at a time! Hugs, kimmi
Wow, I feel so great right now. I not only ran for 45 minutes this morning; I also did 45 minutes of cardio/weights this evening! I was mad because Walmart wouldn’t take the workout DVD back, since it had been opened. I came home and thought, well, it’s here, I may as well put it to use!